Friday, 27 July 2018

WHY I DECIDED TO GO NATURAL



I hate my hair.

I hate the curls, I hate that it gets frizzy. I feel like my scalp is on fire every time my Mum brushes through it. 

I wish I had straight hair like every other girl in my class.

I wish I had hair like my Mama.

That is what 9 year old me would say, over and over and over.

The truth is, I absolutely hated my hair growing up. It was so frizzy, short and.. just not what I considered beautiful at the time. Like everything else, society played a big part in how I viewed myself and my hair in my early years. It taught me that silky, smooth and straight hair was what was 'hot' and a curly, frizzy, afro was not.

So, I started straightening my hair.

(Worst. Mistake. Of. My. Life)

And I know it sounds crazy but at the time..

It made me feel like I was worth something. GHD's allowed me to straighten out my curls which meant that my hair looked longer, it was silky (because of the amount of hair wax I would apply to it) and very smooth. There was no frizzy, twisty curl in sight and I LOVED it.

Then, when I got to the age of 13, I found clip-in hair extensions. What!! you mean to tell me that I can buy long, straight hair extensions and clip them in whenever and wherever I would like?! I'M SOLD.

And that's exactly what I did. I would buy cheap, tatty extensions and I swear to god, I felt like a KWEEN in them, LOL.

And that continued for a few years.


Then I got curly hair extensions, which again were so awful, thin, didn't match my curl type in the slightest and were honestly, horrendous. But, if I was going to have curly hair, I wanted the length to be long, otherwise what was the point? Which is why I always opted for the extensions. When I finally realised that my hair looked a complete and utter mess, I went for the big chop but I decided to have a sew-in weave which I loved. It was a protective hairstyle for me which allowed my natural hair to repair itself and grow out. I had weaves for about 9 months, each one lasting around 6/7 weeks and then I decided enough was enough.

I’m going natural. 

I was absolutely petrified of letting anyone see my natural hair because I had hid it away for so long. I was so used to having really big, bouncy curls which I hardly ever had to touch ~ to now exposing my small, short, fluffy Afro. I knew nothing about how to care for my curls, what products were best to use or what my curl type was.. 

I knew nothing. So, then I researched. 

I watched a lot of YouTube videos, curly hair tutorials and looked for the best products for curly hair. I googled and googled and googled and then I looked on Amazon for products. My hair had already grown a significant amount from being plaited under the weave, so I knew I wanted to keep that up. 

Oh yeah, I also found out that my curl type was: 
Type 3, 3C (if you were wondering)

And it went from there.

The more I took care of my natural hair, the more my curls began to flourish. Okay, they’re still not the length of rapunzels but I think that was just wishful thinking. I’m not sure my curls will ever get that long but right now, it is the healthiest it has been in years and I am grateful. I’m a product junkie so I have tried and tested a lot of brands, a lot of products and have found which works best with my hair.

I have realised that there is so much we can do with curly hair, lots of different hair styles and looks that we can create. Curly hair is never boring.

With all that being said, I decided to ditch the extensions, cut my hair and start over so that I could learn to love myself and my hair in its natural state. I also now have my hair cut every 3 months, just to get rid of any split ends that may occur and to keep my curls alive.

Long hair doesn't automatically mean beautiful and I'm embracing my short curls. 









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